Dresser Drawer | Infant Loss Awareness

Dresser Drawer...

Bathed in soft light,

You left us to greet angels above.

I watched as your soul gently left your tiny body,

Wishing I could hold on to you just a little while longer.

Soft plucking of harp strings

Welcomes you to the golden light

of God's loving embrace.

Family greets you with smiles and love,

Pain and tears are all wiped away,

And you are encircled and join in a symphony of praising your Father in heaven.

I tell you I love you one last time...

I whisper in your tiny ear, "I'll be there soon." 

Tears thicken in my shattered heart.

I gather everything you've touched,

Wanting to bottle up this feeling so I can have it forever.

No more will I see your face.

No more will my heart be full.

All I have is a drawer...

Filled with mementos that aren't worthy of remembering you by.

Every kiss I placed on your head haunts me. 

Your soft skin against my cheek is all I long for.

All I have are your ashes and a few fleeting memories...

Until I am greeted with the light of your embrace,

When I make my home, up in the sky,  just like you did...

All I have is my baby in the dresser drawer...

I wear a coat of angels' breath and warm myself with His love. 

~Terri Guillemets

Leo's Memorial Video....

After so much feedback from everyone

I decided to share the full version of Leo's Memorial Video.

Thank you for your prayers.

Thank you for your kind words.

Thank you for taking the time to share our

journey of faith and love through our beautiful son.

May God be glorified through this video and 

through Leo's memory.

Blessings and Love to you all...

A Hospital like this....

Miracles....

They occur all over, at times when we least expect it. 

Families are shaken with disaster, and loss for hope...

then God swoops in, and SAVES the DAY.

MIRACLES...

Everyday, miraculous miracles are witnessed.

Baby Bronson is a miracle... watch his video story: Bronson's Mircale Video

I am SO touched by this family's story...
Bronson is a "Walking Lazarus"

I know what it is like to feel hopeless. 

To feel numb. scared. full of doubt and fear.

GOD is a GOD of miracles.  

I am inspired by His love and grace.

Inspired by how He touches other through the lives and stories of others.

INSPIRED.HOPEFUL. 

By His grace we are saved, and by His grace we are used for His Glory and His Works. My story... is part of His intricately woven tale of Life. 

Almost 7 months ago our lives were changed forever. and ever.

When we walked into this place...

 

This place changed us...

FOR HIS GLORY

We were blessed with a son here. 

We were blessed with the gift of my own life and his.

We were blessed with so many things.

Closeness.

Family. 

LOVE.

Our sermon this weekend touched on a story of a father who lost two sons in the 911 attacks. The father said he didn't have any "shoulda', woulda', coulda's". 

The father said, "who is lucky enough to have their son's hear "I love You" in the moments before they die?"

MY SON DID. 

My Leo went to heaven.. into the hands of Our Lord 

as we said over and over to him

we. love. you.

I couldn't have asked for more than that. 

I couldn't ask for more of a blessing then knowing the peace Leo had in those moments before his death.

Ushered into heaven with LOVE. 

Ushered into heaven with prayers, and song, and sunsets, and LOVE.   

Ushered into Heaven in the arms of mommy and daddy, saying "We love you".

What a blessing that is! What peace knowing his last moments...

Though my heart will always ache, and my soul will never be fully healed until the day we meet again...

I know Leo has been made Perfect in Heaven.

And that all he EVER knew was LOVE.

The LOVE of family.

The LOVE of Christ.

Blessings abound... it IS enough... this gift of precious life... is ENOUGH.

Moments change lives. Moments in which we soak in and really, 

really LIVE and FEEL.

Moments that if they had gone differently, would have changed things forever.

Moments that were all part of HIS plan.

Kiss your babies tonight. 

Above all, always end with...

I. LOVE. YOU.

1 John 4:19

We love because He first loved us.