For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.

Psalm 139: 13-18

Our Leo


I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of Him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.

1 Samuel 1:27-28

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Slowing loosing altitude.....

I've been doing pretty well with managing my grief.
Except this week.
Maybe it is the video we had made...
that beautifully captures Leo's essence.
Maybe it is the Facebook entries from other
complaining about being pregnant.
Maybe it is my fear of trying again in July...
and my 1 in 8 chances that I will have 
another placental abruption.
This has been a rough week.
An emotional week.
I know I'll get through it, but I guess as strong as I am, 
I even need a break to just grieve. 
 So many things to think about.
So many things to plan and prepare for.

Above all I have to trust in Him.
That though I am fearful, He is always there. 

Missing you today little man. Missing you BIG TIME.
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Posted by Kellene Maynard at 3:18 PM
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  1. Angelia SimsFebruary 25, 2010 at 6:30 PM

    I remember the pregnant women in my office after I lost my first tubal pregnancy and then ANOTHER baby by tubal pregnancy. Oh they complained, and I GRIEVED. I would have done anything to be pregnant. I cherished carrying Sydney. It was such a joy. I am sad for them, that they don't understand the miracle and gift given to them.

    It's okay to grieve and hurt. No one would think you any less of a strong woman that you are. We understand and we cry with you.

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~Kellene

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