Wednesday is Leo's 2nd birthday. No party to throw, no race cars to wrap, no cake to frost, or candles to blow out. No blissful smiles or big belly laughs. My heart aches as each day goes by, knowing I'll never have these special memories with him.
.. To my sweet son, Leo...
Mommy misses you so much. It is almost your birthday and I can't help but wonder what you would be like if you were here. I imagine you are a busy almost 2 year old who smiles all the time. I see you playing with your sister and scheming with her as only siblings can do. Your little voice loves to tell stories and your kisses melt mommy and daddy's heart. My favorite time of day is bedtime, when we say your prayers together. We dance and sing throughout the day, the four of us so happy.
Two years without you feels like eternity already. Mommy remembers holding your tiny hand and kissing your soft forehead. Every beat of your heart resonates within me. If you were here, I'd try to hold onto you forever.
I know God had other plans for you, and He knows what's best, but I don't think my heart will ever be the same. I believe He has plans for me too, and that these wounds of love and longing are all part of things to come.
Please know mommy loves you today and always. I await the day I see you again, the day I scoop you into my arms, look into your eyes, and know all is okay. Thank you for carving me into who I am today. Though your footprints were small, their impact on my heart has been unmeasurable. Your light shines despite your absence, reminding me of how incredible this world truly is.
You are loved and missed my precious boy...
Kellene Maynard, Photographer
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